Sunday, October 17, 2010
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
School Update
Hi all, I was wondering how everyone in our group was doing? Is anyone close to graduating or have you? I ran into Annette F. at WEIO and understand there is funding again. I have to put off another year for student teaching as I am finally pregnant and with twin boys! Those of you who know we, my husband and I, have been trying for 5 years, so we are blessed. However, I would love to get my student teaching out of the way. I understand UAF also has a grant that will help pay for your last year of school as long as you put in a year afterward of teaching. Some great opportunities are out there, lol, figures... Anyway, I would love to hear from you all. It would be great to meet up again!
The family is doing great.
The family is doing great.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Grandma Passes
My grandmother passed March 2nd at 4:20 a.m. I am glad she is no longer suffering. It was a terrible way to pass, that cancer. She was at peace her last hour and that makes me feel better. She was such a strong woman it all seems so unreal right now. I just thought I should give a follow up to my last post.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Wasilla Life
Well, I have to start out by saying it isn't so bad here after all. I really miss life in McGrath, the access to the outdoors and how beautiful it is there. I really miss my house, and my things. I was hoping to do my student teaching but once it again it has been postponed.
My grandma found out this fall she had colon cancer it had spread to her lungs and is in stage iv she opted not to go through chemotherapy. I wasn't working as I was going to student teach so I have been able to take care of her. I spent almost every night in the hospital when she first found out since then we have removed the main tumor and have come home where I watch her daily get weaker. We have some great days that come out of the blue, mostly lately the days have been full of sleep and some visiting. I keep wanting to know what is going on what to expect, the nureses that visit keep reminding me there is no crystal ball, cancer is just ugly.
My grandmother is 74 and was still full of life this was just a blow. Prior to this year we have taken many road trips together and she has spent her summers with me in McGrath. Many of those nights in the summer we have spent them around a fire visiting with friends. She is still young, and we were not ready for this. I find myself sulking and not feeling motivated to do much. I have seen cancer patients but I have never lived with one and watched them slowly disapear. I am her oldest granddaughter she introduces me to her friends as her first. I know she loves me, but we have tough days, my Aunt says it is because I am the closest to her that I get the brunt of her grumpiness. I finally told here the other day to say please. She told me to rub her down like she was giving an order. I have to keep reminding myself she is passing and how hard it must be for her too. I want to break down often, but I know soon there will be a time for that. For now I am trying to keep my head up and as they say one step at a time.
The kids are doing great here. It amazes me that Forest had so much trouble in McGrath, yet he did great in Fairbanks and he is making honor roll out here in Wasilla! Both of our children are actually. I get bitter about that too, because I would love to go home and finish student teaching with a teacher there has been teaching for years and is wonderful. I want to live in my own home, but the school is failing my children and they deserve the best opportunities I can give them. I know there are other parents in my predicament. Both of them did x-country running and did fabulous. Forest finished basketball and went strait into hockey! Alice took a break and is getting ready for NYO, I think we might talk her into track as well in the spring. If you are a parent thinking about moving you should know our first two months were terrible. My daughter hated it. She is a sophomore. Our school in McGrath has 53 students k-12 she moved to a high school with over 1,000 students. She was so depressed I got scared. She came home one day and said, "mom they bump into me and don't even realize it". I thought I made the biggest mistake of my life. What helped us get through the move was getting Alice involved in something. For us it was x-country running. She was mad at me at first for making her join. She didn't know anyone and didn't want to be there. I didn't give in and Alice met friends and ended up finishing the year as a JV runner. But, I see now why we have so many rural students dropping out when they move to the city. There is no transition it is sink or swim time and they need a huge support system when they get here. The system here had an open door policy, but if they think a child like mine is just going to walk into the office and ask questions they are crazy! It was tough. On the other hand my social child Forest had no problem at all with the transition, but becuase he is so social I could never home school him in McGrath he needs that out let.
I just thought I would use my blogg as an outlet, and since Grandma has been diagnosed with colon cancer I have done much research trying to see what others went through. Hang in there and I also think my faith in God has kept us going, actually I know it has.
My grandma found out this fall she had colon cancer it had spread to her lungs and is in stage iv she opted not to go through chemotherapy. I wasn't working as I was going to student teach so I have been able to take care of her. I spent almost every night in the hospital when she first found out since then we have removed the main tumor and have come home where I watch her daily get weaker. We have some great days that come out of the blue, mostly lately the days have been full of sleep and some visiting. I keep wanting to know what is going on what to expect, the nureses that visit keep reminding me there is no crystal ball, cancer is just ugly.
My grandmother is 74 and was still full of life this was just a blow. Prior to this year we have taken many road trips together and she has spent her summers with me in McGrath. Many of those nights in the summer we have spent them around a fire visiting with friends. She is still young, and we were not ready for this. I find myself sulking and not feeling motivated to do much. I have seen cancer patients but I have never lived with one and watched them slowly disapear. I am her oldest granddaughter she introduces me to her friends as her first. I know she loves me, but we have tough days, my Aunt says it is because I am the closest to her that I get the brunt of her grumpiness. I finally told here the other day to say please. She told me to rub her down like she was giving an order. I have to keep reminding myself she is passing and how hard it must be for her too. I want to break down often, but I know soon there will be a time for that. For now I am trying to keep my head up and as they say one step at a time.
The kids are doing great here. It amazes me that Forest had so much trouble in McGrath, yet he did great in Fairbanks and he is making honor roll out here in Wasilla! Both of our children are actually. I get bitter about that too, because I would love to go home and finish student teaching with a teacher there has been teaching for years and is wonderful. I want to live in my own home, but the school is failing my children and they deserve the best opportunities I can give them. I know there are other parents in my predicament. Both of them did x-country running and did fabulous. Forest finished basketball and went strait into hockey! Alice took a break and is getting ready for NYO, I think we might talk her into track as well in the spring. If you are a parent thinking about moving you should know our first two months were terrible. My daughter hated it. She is a sophomore. Our school in McGrath has 53 students k-12 she moved to a high school with over 1,000 students. She was so depressed I got scared. She came home one day and said, "mom they bump into me and don't even realize it". I thought I made the biggest mistake of my life. What helped us get through the move was getting Alice involved in something. For us it was x-country running. She was mad at me at first for making her join. She didn't know anyone and didn't want to be there. I didn't give in and Alice met friends and ended up finishing the year as a JV runner. But, I see now why we have so many rural students dropping out when they move to the city. There is no transition it is sink or swim time and they need a huge support system when they get here. The system here had an open door policy, but if they think a child like mine is just going to walk into the office and ask questions they are crazy! It was tough. On the other hand my social child Forest had no problem at all with the transition, but becuase he is so social I could never home school him in McGrath he needs that out let.
I just thought I would use my blogg as an outlet, and since Grandma has been diagnosed with colon cancer I have done much research trying to see what others went through. Hang in there and I also think my faith in God has kept us going, actually I know it has.
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